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Dilemma....

2012-01-29T02:35:00.000-08:00

I'm not sure how I feel......

Feels like want something which I can't clearly tell what is it......

Which leaves me with a lot of question marks in my mind......

There are things which I fantasy about that aren't really going to come true.....

But yet I cant stop thinking about it and you!

At first it was not obvious....but now I can't say that the same....

Looking at the name, chat histories....becoming a routine!

I know I'm after a shadow and you can't be there for real.....

I wish things were a little different .....

Arrggghhhhh..... I need to come over this!.....

1.1.2012

2011-12-31T20:00:00.000-08:00

1.1.2012.....
A new year... a new beginning.....
Last year has been with lots of ups and down ....
Expecting this year to be full of challenges ....
To start off......I'll be spending the first month of the year in Doha, Qatar....

Adele - Someone Like You

2011-12-29T00:03:00.000-08:00

This song has the most meaningful lyrics ....

Someone Like You.....

2011-12-26T06:32:00.000-08:00

2011 is ending and 2012 is approaching.....

It has been a year with lots of memories....

I welcomed 2011 at Sealine, Doha and this year still unsure where will I be during the eve of New Year...

Would be somewhere in Malaysia....

The first half of the year has been fun...I was away in Doha.....

I grew closer to my team members while in Doha.....

Each day in Doha was challenging, fun...there were so many things happening around us...

Mom, Dad and siblings as usual with all the feuds.....

Lost a dear uncle of mine on 1st June....wished I had seen him one last time....

His memory is still fresh in my mind....

A friend whom I wasn't sure what he wants....finally he left

A complicated friendship clinging along...... which am not sure where it'll will lead

Catching up with friends and cousins was a routine every week....

I have been working on my appearance since July....
Half way through it now....
Which is one of my resolutions for 2012.....
Looking forward for more challenges and fun in 2012.....
I'm sure I can face it with more courage and cherish every moment with my loved ones :)

Hope things will change soon...

2011-12-12T23:18:00.000-08:00

Its been nearly 6 months coming in to work thinking of what to do...
This has to stop somehow, I believe ONE cant be taking own initiative for months to keep up....
Its really frustrating when you dont have anything on the plate for your action...
Hardly 10 emails a day pertaining work, time moves so slow in office
Withought knowing what to do next.....
Worst still when you have people whom are bossy around you!
How long can I cope with this going on!?!?! I need some work ..... need a change..... need a break!
Hope things will change soon as 2012 approaches....

Mr Perfect and Ms Genuine...

2011-11-30T19:03:00.000-08:00

Just because you can ask, it doesnt mean you can ask the world!
Try to think that the person you are talking with has got some feeling!
Just be frank of what you want!
And dont potray as the Mr.Genuine....after all the things been said and done!

I didnt say I'm Miss perfect and I'm always right...
I know my grounds very well before I take my lead...
There were times I do commit mistakes....
And feel guilt over it.....
Remember that I'm also a normal human just like you....

Friends .....

2011-09-12T02:35:00.000-07:00

I'm sure everyone has friends in their life. There are friends of all sorts. Some will call them so 'called' friends and be with us just get something from us. Once they get their job done, you will not be bothered. It may sound like parasite but that is the truth.

There are friends whom are just there for timebeing, they leave no good nor bad memories....

There are friends whom are there for you when you are in need. They will be standing by no matter what to be there for you. I'm glad that I have friends like that.

They are there till now for me and I am for them. No matter what happens you guys have been the dear ones and the closest to my heart...... I do not have to list you in the friends list, You know you are the one....

I'm lucky to have meet you and have you as a friend for all these year. Of course we have had our times when we quarrel, argue, fight.....yet we forget about it the next moment and we'll be giggling away......

Thanks for being such a wonderful dear friend of mine........I hope we can still be the same as we age together....

we age yes but the friendship never :)

You and me...us, we and them....everyone ....

2011-09-07T20:40:00.000-07:00

Life is full of ups and downs.....

When are get whatever we want in life we are so happy, at times we forget to say 'Thanks'...

We'll be treating everyone well and always joyful

BUT

When we don't get what we asked for, we'll start being upset at times, saying loads of prayers to make it happen....in desperate situation one may be very cunning and mistreat others....

We do not realize how much can we hurt a person directly and indirectly....

In most occurrence, the person may forgive us but they will never forget what has been said to them or done to them will not be forgotten.

Always think before saying or do anything....you'll never know how hard it'll affect the dear ones around you.....

When we hurt others we never had a thought how would they feel, we never thought from their end....

Always think of what and how we mingle around with rest....have a healthy relationship...

I know its hard to do it.....and we are not perfect...

but we can at least try to minimize it.... cheers...

We, people and things around US....

2011-09-07T00:35:00.000-07:00

There are certain things which happens in life which is unplanned, unpredictable....they may leave a lot of memories behind, it can be a good one, bad or nasty ones.

Its up to us on how to deal with it, dwell or cherish it.

We are tied to all actions that occurs among us, tied among other people, tied with environments...

One can't live the life alone, he or she would need some kind of base to live on. Everything that we do might affect the others / surrounding you directly or indirectly.

Always keep that in mind before we do something.....most of the things done cannot be undone.

We fail to keep that in mind. Most of us only care about ownself. Very few cares about others or the surroundings. Its sad that, most of us are educated but act as if we are not. Some act so smart as IF they are the most perfect ones. To be gentle to others you don't have to act smart, just be reasonable, and this would be helpful for many others.

Actions....

2011-08-29T01:14:00.001-07:00

I believe every actions has a reaction....

Think wise before taking action on anything, or you may face the consequences.....

There are actions which can be pardoned and some are not!....

Some actions, may break a friendship

Some actions, may break a relationship

and some may end up failing everything to do with life

Most actions are kept as dark secret in life........until unless,

Its been accidentally spoken about......

which can bring great sorrow at times to those whom are involved directly and indirectly......

Think twice before doing anything......

its OK to say No or delay the actions till you are comfortable doing it......

which can save a lot of trouble near future......

IF you have done it, lets hope its been sealed away and never spoken about it......

Sometimes the truth can be ugly for certain individual.

Changing Mode

2011-08-15T00:27:00.001-07:00

I have achieved some of the things which I have always wanted to be ........

Some of the achievements that I have got was with a lot of support from loved ones and friends but

I always never really cared about self appearance. There were few times I tried, when I see some results I'll be on cloud 9 and never really bother about it again.

But now since I came back, I wanted to be a different person. I wanted to pamper myself. I started take note of my appearance and working my way about it.

Every time the changes occurs it boosts my self confidence. I know I can do it, and I would not have done it this far without you Anni.

I know I have let you down a few times before but this time I'll surely prove it that 'I can do IT!'.

It was very hard for first few days with the new set of routines but it is not now. Reaching the first milestone is kinda having butterflies in the stomach :)

Soon I'll be there and the family will know that I'm NOT the same old Hinthu they have known for past 28years :)

The time will come when the invisibility will wash away and will be noticed.

Live up the spirit and look forward!

2011-08-12T08:13:00.000-07:00

There are so many types of characters we meet everyday in our life.

You will be surprised that some characters are very cheeky and mischievous. They might have very charming and sensible personality yet they can be double faced.

At times we can be deceived by these characters with their personality.

But this is not the end of life when one does that to us. Take it as a passing cloud and move on....

Live up the spirit and look forward.

There are people whom more worth it in this world!!!

You are at lost and NOT ME!!!!

2011-08-11T07:20:00.000-07:00

I never asked for something which is out of my capability.

I only asked for some piece of mind and to be cherished, loved.

And yet some take it for granted, this annoys to the max.

Every time I step forward to reach out there's always a hand which pulls me down.

I have tried many times to strive and fight back. Guess I still have some courage left.

The courage given by my loved ones and friends helped me when am doomed in darkness.

I'm who I am and you better get it into your mind. I'm not some random human which you can think of. I not gonna let go my pride in any consequences.

Well, you missed a professional, cultured, modern yet a traditional person.

You are at lost and NOT ME!!!!

Lame...

2010-09-01T20:15:00.000-07:00

Its been close to 4 mths in new place...and things here are so much.... I cant get the right word..
everyone is on their own....from inside I feel like I'm alone not as an organization....
the bond between the team is missing and everyday seems like very hard....
its just so dissapointing when u dont feel a whole....

Hope things change over here.....looking forward for a change...

After a long Time

2010-03-17T08:26:00.001-07:00

Well after so much of nagging here and there, I decided to come and scribble....
I have finally made my decision on what I want and where I wanna go.....
Today, I let it go finally and I feel so free......

The place where I gained so much skills both soft and technical, memories and not to forget friends....too long the name list would be if I were to write it down.....Everyone is very precious in their very own way....you guys will be on my mind...gonna miss this team and the gang......

Simply....

2009-04-23T01:18:00.000-07:00

I'm here loitering in the office....nothing much to do.
It has been said May onwards will be hectic, but till May, what am I suppose to do.
This is a question I've been asking myself since January.

Hopefully would have work as been told before. Sitting in the office doing nothing is
so, irritating and frustrated. Hope this will end soon.

After a Long Gap....

2009-04-20T18:48:00.000-07:00

Well, I was trying to write something all this while but I went blank, didnt know what to write. Honestly, I didnt realize my last post was in November.
I always see my neighbour Laila, always update her blog and I go "What she's writing and mean while I do not have anything to write" so the time passed by with me thinking what to write....

well, it's towards end of April now. Gosh, time flies so fast, 2009- mid year is coming. At work, having not much of work. Only tranining and e-learning, which bores alot. Hoping to have something to do in May. I use to dream of working during collage. thought that working would be fun. When I entered the working-hood, I knew that studying was the fun part of life. I would give anything to get that particular life back. So much responsibilities to meet up with plus commitments in life. Still learning the circle, ups and downs of life.

So many things to be achived this year. Hope I'll get it done by end of the year.
Everything is in the to do list, but getting it done is another tuff task. Hope I'll have anough will power to get it done by end of the year.

hmmm, i think that's all i could write. Hopefully I could keep my blog updated. huhuu...
adios amigo.....

What does LIFE really means????

2008-11-11T06:58:00.000-08:00

I dunno why? and how?....I feel it is an open ended question. Which may have various types of answers from alot of us. Which is true.

For some Life is an opportunity, for some Life may be like eating a piece of cake, For some life is horrible.....it all depends on how an indivial takes it. Life is always full with challenges, dramas, chaos and etc.

To achieve something one may have to sacrifice alot in their life, some may even achieve by just snapping the fingers. Some live life easy and for some living a life is so difficult.

The topic can go on and on and on......I wish I could write more, but, my eyes are too tired....hehe
You can have a thought on this topic and write something on your board........

Just Another Day

2008-11-10T22:27:00.000-08:00

Lemme see.....Today everything seem to be fine. Nothing is new. Just that the network in MAS is slow and it take ages to open a misrable e-learning page. After lunch didnt even bother to look into it.

I have a question....does eating carrots everyday harm u ? read some medical documents on it...Still not sure it has its pros and cons.....

been chatting wit Sara and Kas......Sara is complaining she's bored and wants us to come back and give her some company.......chill Sara, we'll be coming soon, but the thing is we dont knw when....
have a big '?' in our head... Kas as normal we updated each other's gossips...:P .... Nisha wasnt there as there was a client visit......anyhow, she'll be updated soon.....Amira started her development task in the project...she's kinda nervous.....

I think tht's all.......hopefully the evening will be wonderful, nothing comes up and screwup my mood......adiozzzz

After a Long Break

2008-11-09T19:45:00.000-08:00

After a Long Break
I'm not sure why I didnt update. It didnt click my mind about the blog :P Hmmm.... in this 3 mth's period nothing has changed drastically...
On Friday I came to GDC, after so long, stepping foot in GDC, felt so different. Only those whom have been Onsite will know what I felt......Something funny happened when I scanned my ID. When I placed my thumb at the bioscript machine after flashing the ID, I couldnt get through.... haizzz.. I did it for a number of times.Finally the guard opened the door for me...went to the guard and explained tht I couldnt use my card and I dunno why...he referred me to the receptionist, I had to explain to her that I'm Onsite with client...she told me to go and see Praveen...."Habislah" I thought in my heart *winked*

I walked near ODC1 and called Kasturi out, we're in panrty chit-chatting....I called Siva another person in IMS who helps me on my satyam logins to check on ID. When he flashed the card on bioscript it worked and he told me to place my index finger....GUESS WHT....It was working, my mistake I placed the THUMB....he went "ddee"...AWWWW malunya...ThenI sambung chit chatting wit Kas.....

went to 1st floor disturb Devika and Bala....we laughed till Bala had tears on his eyes...hahaha then went to 2nd floor to meet my scandal partner...Sasi *wink* Met Nisha at 1st floor lobby, wht else the moment 3 of us meet sudah mulah gossip...Met Hafeez, Mira was in a meeting, then Sasi came......soon Baanu and Suma joined...we're talking so loudly I think....:P We didnt bother abt others around us....

Was suppose to back in MDEC bus with Nisha, but then I got dragged along by Hafeez and Amira to go airport to sendoff Mano.....At the airport Mano didnt knw I was cmg along...hehe..he was shocked....to add another one to it....he told me my friend's parents were there too....hmmm...Sarut, my collegemate is Mano's cousin...met the parents and I called Sarut.....Mano was so sad....I think he teared....

The next say we (Hafeez, Mira and Nisha) went to Malacca, it was a sudden planned trip in conjunction with Hafeez's friends wedding....He went for the wedding while we're loitering in Mahkota and Dataran Pahlawan.....we watched mv in the evening arnd 7pm...Quantum of Solace.....later at night Hafeez's friends took us for dinner near Perigi Hang Li Po....Asam Pedas...It was damn tasty...according to his friend, the recipe at that particular shop is diff.....after tht we went to Jonkers Street...more like hot market...most of the things sold was "3 for RM10".....bought some stuffs.....Went to eye on Malaysia but it was closed...finally we took some snap shots with tired and oily faces :P....All were tired but we're happy...we thought the trip was short....planning to go there again....We reached around 3.30AM....Nisha stayed over.....our gossip didnt stop till she went back home nearly 5pm....

I felt like "It was A Weekend to Remember" :P

2008-07-28T23:27:00.000-07:00

Ending of July.....
Another month is coming to an end....just like another week to end.....soon will be Aug. Gosh...TIME IS FLYING damn fast....still remember the 2008 New Year...I bet all eltp15 would remember it....we're celebrating it together in the training lab, Satyam GDC....:P....can't forget those old days....everyone making fun of everyone...

Talking abt end of July......THE PAY IS STILL NOT IN!!!!!!.....what's going on???? the sale is on but the pay is not in.....got so many plans this month.....exiciting to go for shopping but it hurts while paying a long bill...:P I think all will be thinking the same...huuhuuhu.....

Sometimes I wonder, what am going to do for the rest of year.....just work????....I don't think i'll be doing the same for another 10 - 15 years.....coz, am bored of the working life....I know that I have been working only for 2 years now...but then...doing the same old routine everyday it's such a bore...what you guys think?? hmmmm......

I need to go for a movie parade....just myself....watch 3 mv a day....and come back... need to release some bad omen in me...*wink*....but dunno when to go...ust cant get time only for myself......just me, with no one...do whatever I want.....go wherever I want.....I'm not sure if I'm asking too much...but I want time for myself...everyday week people plan things for me.....people expects me to be there....and keep things tidy...

It's 2.38pm and I dont have work now........done for the day.....dunno what to do will 6pm....more than 3 hours 2 go......I got no mood for anything....sumtimes I feel real hopeless.....haha...I think am gng crazy......hmm...wondering what else I couldt to value the time that I have......hope fully I'll find sumthing interesting rather than dreaming in office......:P

Life Has to GO ON......

2008-07-24T23:13:00.000-07:00

End of work week.....FRIDAY, the day almost all working adult lookout for, a day where school student eagerly waitin.....a day when most college students go partying.....as for me, yes I fall in the category of ppl whom awaits for this very day to come......On Friday, after lunch...very rare that I have work to do.....I'll be expected to read some documents or do some e-learning.....as for me if i do either one for an hour for sure, I'll fall ASLEEP....*wink*... Can't wait for the clock to tick 6pm.....
One of my chat companion on half day.......gosh...i don't really dunno what to do....I've been read a PDF doc entitled "Men are from Mars and Women Are from Venus by John Gray", pretty interesting notations about apposite sexes......I mean men and women....191 pages.....I just been reading about page 15 now...still along way to go......
I wish my life was different that what I am now.....I know that everyone wish just like I do, but then I feel that my life been terrible......I dun hv any good childhood memory that I can think of now....was not close to my family...even till now, I barely knw them personally and same goes to them, they barely know me........As am the eldest...all the blame the younger ones do, comes to me...I dun blame that but then parents should change the way they think....why do they always think a child's behavior has gone bad b'coz of the other siblings and friends......why should point fingers to others? why put blame on other's when you yourself dont know wht's in them? it hurts when u get the blame without knowing what's going on.............Parents should talk to the child as polite they can, befriend them.....I feel the child's behaviour is purely parents' responsibility to nuture since young age........This will bring a dramatic change in ones life........Some of my family thinks I'm arrogant, ego, "kacang lupakan kulit"*forgot the eng proverb...* , what so ever they call me they don't know what I'm gng thru and am sure they are there just to irritate me...I dun want to name them......just had it enuff in my life.....I was made fun that I may not get my degree, most of them disliked when I joined APIIT, coz, it's a private college...on my cuz and his wife supported me.....thanks to him, till today he and his wife are the 2 most great people in my life, when I graduated with good result, Of COURSE I show it OFF to the rest of the family.... So much pain, Just dun want to think of them now.....cant stop the downpour from eyes.....huhuhu...

I'm just frustrated with my life and get rid of this place.......go sum whr there's no one after me.... I have done so much, that I dont think I have more energy...........to carry the burden.....
I'm really hoping to have a good weekend myself.....just me, me and my room....with no one's presence......I need some Peace........Someone out there, will you please help me to get SOME PEACE.................

Yet another Week to go ON!!!!

2008-07-15T01:33:00.000-07:00

Time flies so fast, it was like 1st July, happy spending my June salary and now its 15 July half month gone just like that....but salary balance is not even half left...even lesser.....*wink*...
My trip to Penang was good....went to Kek Lok Si Temple, Toy Muzeum...and Ferringhi Beach...Botanic Garden trip was spoiled by the rain......Bukit Bendera was closed due to some cable car maintenance.....did little shopping....had fun...
Planning for another outing soon.....might be Langkawi or Malacca....haven't decided....
Going for movie with MAS team thid Friday after work...Journey to The Center of The Earth....3D, as an event of Fun Committee.....Hopefully it would be a good event....So far, the feedback are good neverthe less there are some critics.....good to have critics at times...used to make some improvements in future....
Dunno whatelse to tell.....am feeling really bored...nothing much to do...waiting for the clock to tick 6pm...

Another Week TO Start.......

2008-07-07T23:51:00.000-07:00

Hmm...what shall I say?...*wink*..
Another Monday just passed on, Comes Tuesday and Wednesday is about to come...huhu...
My weekend was good...planned to go for movie, Get Smart on Friday after work, with Shakti and Chan, but then cancelled last minuted, we thought it was gonna rain heavily.....huhu...kesian Chan made her stayed back, if not, surely she packs her clothes on Thurs night and head back home after work on Friday.
Saturday went for Mus's wedding with Amira and Hafeez......then, accompanied my cuz and my sisters to Sg.Wang and Times Square. Told myself not to buy anything, but then when the word SALE was bold on every outlet we entered....had to buy...couldnt keep my itchy hands quietly...huhu
*wink* got new handbag, blouse, skirt, pants, a pair of shoes and sandals....quiet alot...bought for youngest sister some clothes....huhu...am good sister also...getting stuffs for the younger siblings...*wink*
Can't wait for this Friday to come....going to Penang...short holiday I would say...cuz and Shakti are coming. They both haven't been to Penang, so, Me like the tour guide gonna show them around...huhu, my brother would be the driver...huhu, he'w working in Penang. Bought the bus tickets last night. Wanted to go by train but all tickets sold out, last minute planning...
hmm....I think that's all....wanna go into e-learning but then I fear I'll fall asleep and it's been cold since morning........hw nice if it was a holiday today, can just lay on d bed....*wink*

Something to Share.....

2008-07-01T22:35:00.000-07:00

My mood is like a cloudy noon

My mood is like a cloudy noonWaiting for the sun,
Or like a sailing ship that can'tSet sail without the tide.
I fidget in my emptiness,
Not knowing where to run;
Yet when you're near I can't explain
What's going on inside.
It's too bad feelings swim so deep,
Too deep for anyoneTo grasp them as they squiggle through
And take them for a ride.

By: Dimitri Shostakovich

Monday Blues

2008-06-30T00:26:00.000-07:00

Sumthing was wrong with this blog..or maybe I clicked on a wrong link....my blog first blog went missing after I update my profile....am still learning the features of this blog...*wink*...to make life easier...i just simply repost the blog.
My weekend was good...tiring though.....Friday movie...was good, WANTED....finally got a chance to see Hafeez's new car......Sat, took my newphew out....Unable to get ticket for Kung-fu Panda in Pyramid......we went for the Incredible Hulk...GUESS wht...he was scared and we had to come out in just 15 mins.....First time in my life I walked out of the cinema, during the first 15 mins of the movie. Not even the first half......promised to take him for Kung-fu Panda next week...hope fully I can get the tickets earlier......
Sunday, my cuz moved into my apartment..ditched her halfway and went to KL for window shopping with Bindey......Window shopping which cost me rm 500....huhuhu..*wink* bought 2 suit materials and a saree....it was a good bargain.....i was suppose to get her one aswell....finally i spend all my money on myself....*wink* *wink* I promised that I'll surely get her one soon.....as a gift for her wedding......some new colors been added to my wardrobe, a turquiose, another creamy orange and a red saree.....huhuhu...the embroderie work was good..and colorful....
next shopping would be looking for cosmetic jewelery for the suits that I got yesterday....to wear for Bindey's wedding...planning ahead...hahaha
I piecered my nose, and damn it's still painful...i mean not to say very pain ful but then the pain is still there......Had to be careful when i wipe my face....gossh, had a dream last night that, the stud went inside my nose and had go thru a surgery....And I woke up that instance.....huhu...

Felt no mood to work this morning....not enuff sleep i guess.....and feeling tired...planning to sleep early....I guess that's all....quite a lengthly post....

P/S: IM, yea I hv started also...infected by amira and sarah,,.....:p

First Time

2008-06-30T00:25:00.001-07:00

hmmm...inspired again to write sumthing here...See my friends write so much in blogs, sumtimes i wonder, why they need to blog and what's the reason behind it. I used to blog in friendster during college days and paused till today. I read amira's and sarah's blog...:p, everytime these gals will say "writing blog"...and used to wonder what they are writing. Finally I asked Amira what's her blog url. And there you go, this is hw i got infected....hahahahhaha :pBeen working in Satyam for about 9 mths now. What else, work??? It's going on fine, sumtimes lotsa of it sumtimes...i got nothing to do...bug ppl or mind own my business.......I have made alot of friends in Satyam over the period here. Started from our training period, ELTP 15, fun time that we had together. We had laughter and scolding together. Reachout for each other, bully each other. The first person I talked to was Hazlina, was sitting beside her on the first day, then chat with May2 and Yen (like the Japan currency :P) . The next day was on leave, to settle some stuffs for the passpport and bond agreement.Then, met Nisha, Mira and Sal. Nisha was alil late choosing her place, she had to sit at the back row but not really the back row. I was sitting with Mira, Sal and Yen. Then I came to know of Sarah, Hafeez, Asha (main brain) and Shauqi(Shockers ::P)......this is how it started.....Now all of us are into the business team and we still do kip in touch.Hope the relationship remains. Everyday we meet alot of people, but only certain will leave an impact in your life.

p/s: and yes....cant wait for tonite, watching movie with Mira and Hafeez....WANTED...yahooooo...see

adioz....