Dilemma....

I'm not sure how I feel......

Feels like want something which I can't clearly tell what is it......

Which leaves me with a lot of question marks in my mind......

There are things which I fantasy about that aren't really going to come true.....

But yet I cant stop thinking about it and you!

At first it was not obvious....but now I can't say that the same....

Looking at the name, chat histories....becoming a routine! 

I know I'm after a shadow and you can't be there for real.....

I wish things were a little different ..... 

Arrggghhhhh..... I need to come over this!.....

1.1.2012

1.1.2012.....
A new year... a new beginning.....
Last year has been with lots of ups and down ....
Expecting this year to be full of challenges ....
To start off......I'll be spending the first month of the year in Doha, Qatar....

Adele - Someone Like You

This song has the most meaningful lyrics ....

Someone Like You.....

2011 is ending and 2012 is approaching.....

It has been a year with lots of memories.... 

I welcomed 2011 at Sealine, Doha and this year still unsure where will I be during the eve of New Year...

Would be somewhere in Malaysia....

The first half of the year has been fun...I was away in Doha.....

I grew closer to my team members while in Doha..... 

Each day in Doha was challenging, fun...there were so many things happening around us...

Mom, Dad and siblings as usual with all the feuds.....

Lost a dear uncle of mine on 1st June....wished I had seen him one last time....

His memory is still fresh in my mind....

A friend whom I wasn't sure what he wants....finally he left

A complicated friendship clinging along...... which am not sure where it'll will lead

Catching up with friends and cousins was a routine every week....

I have been working on my appearance since July....
Half way through it now....
Which is one of my resolutions for 2012.....
Looking forward for more challenges and fun in 2012.....
I'm sure I can face it with more courage and cherish every moment with my loved ones :)

Hope things will change soon...

Its been nearly 6 months coming in to work thinking of what to do...
This has to stop somehow, I believe ONE cant be taking own initiative for months to keep up....
Its really frustrating when you dont have anything on the plate for your action...
Hardly 10 emails a day pertaining work, time moves so slow in office
Withought knowing what to do next.....
Worst still when you have people whom are bossy around you!
How long can I cope with this going on!?!?! I need some work ..... need a change..... need a break!
Hope things will change soon as 2012 approaches....

Mr Perfect and Ms Genuine...

Just because you can ask, it doesnt mean you can ask the world!
Try to think that the person you are talking with has got some feeling!
Just be frank of what you want!
And dont potray as the Mr.Genuine....after all the things been said and done!

I didnt say I'm Miss perfect and I'm always right...
I know my grounds very well before I take my lead...
There were times I do commit mistakes....
And feel guilt over it.....
Remember that I'm also a normal human just like you....

Friends .....

I'm sure everyone has friends in their life. There are friends of all sorts. Some will call them so 'called' friends and be with us just get something from us. Once they get their job done, you will not be bothered. It may sound like parasite but that is the truth. 

There are friends whom are just there for timebeing, they leave no good nor bad memories....

There are friends whom are there for you when you are in need. They will be standing by no matter what to be there for you. I'm glad that I have friends like that. 

They are there till now for me and I am for them. No matter what happens you guys have been the dear ones and the closest to my heart...... I do not have to list you in the friends list, You know you are the one....

I'm lucky to have meet you and have you as a friend for all these year. Of course we have had our times when we quarrel, argue, fight.....yet we forget about it the next moment and we'll be giggling away......

Thanks for being such a wonderful dear friend of mine........I hope we can still be the same as we age together....

we age yes but the friendship never :)