Ending of July.....
Another month is coming to an end....just like another week to end.....soon will be Aug. Gosh...TIME IS FLYING damn fast....still remember the 2008 New Year...I bet all eltp15 would remember it....we're celebrating it together in the training lab, Satyam GDC....:P....can't forget those old days....everyone making fun of everyone...

Talking abt end of July......THE PAY IS STILL NOT IN!!!!!!.....what's going on???? the sale is on but the pay is not in.....got so many plans this month.....exiciting to go for shopping but it hurts while paying a long bill...:P I think all will be thinking the same...huuhuuhu.....

Sometimes I wonder, what am going to do for the rest of year.....just work????....I don't think i'll be doing the same for another 10 - 15 years.....coz, am bored of the working life....I know that I have been working only for 2 years now...but then...doing the same old routine everyday it's such a bore...what you guys think?? hmmmm......

I need to go for a movie parade....just myself....watch 3 mv a day....and come back... need to release some bad omen in me...*wink*....but dunno when to go...ust cant get time only for myself......just me, with no one...do whatever I want.....go wherever I want.....I'm not sure if I'm asking too much...but I want time for myself...everyday week people plan things for me.....people expects me to be there....and keep things tidy...

It's 2.38pm and I dont have work now........done for the day.....dunno what to do will 6pm....more than 3 hours 2 go......I got no mood for anything....sumtimes I feel real hopeless.....haha...I think am gng crazy......hmm...wondering what else I couldt to value the time that I have......hope fully I'll find sumthing interesting rather than dreaming in office......:P

Life Has to GO ON......

End of work week.....FRIDAY, the day almost all working adult lookout for, a day where school student eagerly waitin.....a day when most college students go partying.....as for me, yes I fall in the category of ppl whom awaits for this very day to come......On Friday, after lunch...very rare that I have work to do.....I'll be expected to read some documents or do some e-learning.....as for me if i do either one for an hour for sure, I'll fall ASLEEP....*wink*... Can't wait for the clock to tick 6pm.....
One of my chat companion on half day.......gosh...i don't really dunno what to do....I've been read a PDF doc entitled "Men are from Mars and Women Are from Venus by John Gray", pretty interesting notations about apposite sexes......I mean men and women....191 pages.....I just been reading about page 15 now...still along way to go......
I wish my life was different that what I am now.....I know that everyone wish just like I do, but then I feel that my life been terrible......I dun hv any good childhood memory that I can think of now....was not close to my family...even till now, I barely knw them personally and same goes to them, they barely know me........As am the eldest...all the blame the younger ones do, comes to me...I dun blame that but then parents should change the way they think....why do they always think a child's behavior has gone bad b'coz of the other siblings and friends......why should point fingers to others? why put blame on other's when you yourself dont know wht's in them? it hurts when u get the blame without knowing what's going on.............Parents should talk to the child as polite they can, befriend them.....I feel the child's behaviour is purely parents' responsibility to nuture since young age........This will bring a dramatic change in ones life........Some of my family thinks I'm arrogant, ego, "kacang lupakan kulit"*forgot the eng proverb...* , what so ever they call me they don't know what I'm gng thru and am sure they are there just to irritate me...I dun want to name them......just had it enuff in my life.....I was made fun that I may not get my degree, most of them disliked when I joined APIIT, coz, it's a private college...on my cuz and his wife supported me.....thanks to him, till today he and his wife are the 2 most great people in my life, when I graduated with good result, Of COURSE I show it OFF to the rest of the family.... So much pain, Just dun want to think of them now.....cant stop the downpour from eyes.....huhuhu...

I'm just frustrated with my life and get rid of this place.......go sum whr there's no one after me.... I have done so much, that I dont think I have more energy...........to carry the burden.....
I'm really hoping to have a good weekend myself.....just me, me and my room....with no one's presence......I need some Peace........Someone out there, will you please help me to get SOME PEACE.................

Yet another Week to go ON!!!!

Time flies so fast, it was like 1st July, happy spending my June salary and now its 15 July half month gone just like that....but salary balance is not even half left...even lesser.....*wink*...
My trip to Penang was good....went to Kek Lok Si Temple, Toy Muzeum...and Ferringhi Beach...Botanic Garden trip was spoiled by the rain......Bukit Bendera was closed due to some cable car maintenance.....did little shopping....had fun...
Planning for another outing soon.....might be Langkawi or Malacca....haven't decided....
Going for movie with MAS team thid Friday after work...Journey to The Center of The Earth....3D, as an event of Fun Committee.....Hopefully it would be a good event....So far, the feedback are good neverthe less there are some critics.....good to have critics at times...used to make some improvements in future....
Dunno whatelse to tell.....am feeling really bored...nothing much to do...waiting for the clock to tick 6pm...

Another Week TO Start.......

Hmm...what shall I say?...*wink*..
Another Monday just passed on, Comes Tuesday and Wednesday is about to come...huhu...
My weekend was good...planned to go for movie, Get Smart on Friday after work, with Shakti and Chan, but then cancelled last minuted, we thought it was gonna rain heavily.....huhu...kesian Chan made her stayed back, if not, surely she packs her clothes on Thurs night and head back home after work on Friday.
Saturday went for Mus's wedding with Amira and Hafeez......then, accompanied my cuz and my sisters to Sg.Wang and Times Square. Told myself not to buy anything, but then when the word SALE was bold on every outlet we entered....had to buy...couldnt keep my itchy hands quietly...huhu
*wink* got new handbag, blouse, skirt, pants, a pair of shoes and sandals....quiet alot...bought for youngest sister some clothes....huhu...am good sister also...getting stuffs for the younger siblings...*wink*
Can't wait for this Friday to come....going to Penang...short holiday I would say...cuz and Shakti are coming. They both haven't been to Penang, so, Me like the tour guide gonna show them around...huhu, my brother would be the driver...huhu, he'w working in Penang. Bought the bus tickets last night. Wanted to go by train but all tickets sold out, last minute planning...
hmm....I think that's all....wanna go into e-learning but then I fear I'll fall asleep and it's been cold since morning........hw nice if it was a holiday today, can just lay on d bed....*wink*

Something to Share.....

My mood is like a cloudy noon

My mood is like a cloudy noonWaiting for the sun,
Or like a sailing ship that can'tSet sail without the tide.
I fidget in my emptiness,
Not knowing where to run;
Yet when you're near I can't explain
What's going on inside.
It's too bad feelings swim so deep,
Too deep for anyoneTo grasp them as they squiggle through
And take them for a ride.

By: Dimitri Shostakovich